My head’s spinning like a top, heavy like a sumo-wrestler, nose clogged like a thousand year old sewage pipe, throat sore like salt on raw flesh, and a temperature running like a sprinter.
Not a good time to fall sick, especially with 3 presentations, a report, and a midterm coming up the next 2 weeks.
Oh, by His stripes, I am made whole!
The sixth 3am of the week, and here I am penning down my thoughts, 6 hrs before a project meeting.
It’s just been a week, but it felt like weekss. Challenging, I must say. One after another, the people I hold close to my heart, walk into valley moments. An emotional toll to be there to walk together , but still, I will..
When I see you bury your head in your pillow and sob in deep agony and anguish, all I can do is to sit by your bed and place my arms around you.. My heart wrenches,and I cant say more.. Ive never felt so much for someone before..
The spate of events that occurred over a short span of time, made me ponder – almost over excessively. When we think of “Life”, our instinct tells us Energy, Vibrancy, Vigour, Hope, Exploding Potential and most of all, Strength. On the contrary, Life itself , possesses this property of immeasurable Unpredictabilityand Vulnerability, that absolutely no human being can alter . We never know how things turn 180deg overnight, but they do. We can never boast about tomorrow, for we know not what tomorrow holds.
Yet, the best way we can live life, and view life, is through the lens of boundless optimism and hope. I didnt plan for the previous post to be on dreams, but it so coincidentally tied up with the extremely Good News that was announced last weekend; A dream, a vision that we held on to for years, believing that God will bring it to past. And , HE DID. – WE’VE FINALLY GOT OUR LAND 
Praise the Lord for His Faithfulness and Greatness.
I feel so hopeful. If God can make that happen, He can make ANYTHING happen.
I love those 2-3am talks with my sister. I’ve always cherished these heartfelt moments, and it was no different, 2 days ago.
She asked me a very simple question about Desire, and that was how we got all started, into the wee hours. It’s been awhile since I felt this challenged, and it brought to memory those visions and dreams that I used to dream so much about , for God. I questioned if that burning desire and passion that I used to have, in pursuit of That dream, still strong? My heart knows that one day it will come to past, because honestly, it is just a small dream.. but the question is.. When? You’re right that it feels so comfortable now.. It’s like taking the back seat ; that comfort zone, where all is nice, familiar, warm and cosy. My heart,soul and spirit deeply yearn for some space to stretch again, I need it, I really do. I’m done with cruising on a 365-day flight in an EY seat – my leg’s cramped, arms numbed, neck aching, ankles stiffened. Where do I seek that place to stretch? It seems almost wierd, how I feel so in need of a real challenge. I dont know how to describe it; it feels like an elephant getting stuffed into a fridge. Get what I mean..?? (that was my best shot at describing it 
)
Not for others to look upon and nod in approval , but because it pleases God.
I get mad when I find myself being afraid to dream. All of us have the right to be the biggest dreamers. None of us should ever be fearful of dreaming, because
Reality is nothing, but a limiter.
The happiest and best thing that happened to me this week was that, I loved and made someone feel loved. As a result, we drew closer.
It really isn’t easy to be there for someone who’s going through a down/depressing period ; it takes time, stamina, alot of love, patience and capacity, but I’m glad I tried my best.
Because Jesus loved,
It’s all worth it
If you’ve been wondering what book it is?
It’s this!
It’s amazing,because it brings into perspective the eternal life and inheritance that God has instored for us. What Ive caught thus far – we must honour the grace that He has given to us and to always live in the fear of the Lord, because it is this good fear that allows the Holy Spirit to speak into our hearts, to change and mould us . Many times the little unpleasing thoughts, actions, motives and words that slip out of our mouths might seemed to have gone unnoticed, or brushed aside, and we think that we can escape the embarrassement of them being revealed, but those reap eternal consequences. I hope that Ill have the time to share more about it, and gosh, the more I read the book, the more I see my weaknesses. There’s so much to change if we want to live worthy of this call.
John Bevere wrote The Parabel of Affabel (the imaginery Heaven) in this book, relating it to our life on this earth and later on, in eternity, centering the parable around 5 characters with very.. special names – Charity, Selfish, Deceived, Independent, Faint Heart. It also comes in an Audio Drama form, which someone has very kindly uploaded on Youtube (of course the quality of the movie-theatre sound tracks have been compromised, but its still great), and Ive watched till the 11th part!
http://www.youtube.com/user/Catechumen7#p/u/13/eq6xM93GZKg
(this is the 8th part, and you can catch it from the beginning! )
On to other matters, ohh maaan Tao Ze’s concert was awesome. I really admire the way he engaged the initially very unresponsive crowd , with his very genuine heart and love for music, and definitely with his innate sense of humour. It’s a feat for ONE soul to liven the atmosphere of an indoor stadium that seats 12000. You can almost literally feel a piece of his soul, and the many litres of teardrops and sweat he has shed, for every single song composed. I felt so won over at the end of it! Meant to upload one of the videos caught at his concert, but wordpress has some technical issues now. Ive uploaded them on FB tho!
Last but not least, if you thought gone are the days of Free Labour, you are just about wrong. Today, IdontknowwhybutIagreed (must have been she and shijie’s kindness in buying me a big box of extremely yummy tori-Q that I got bribed into) to be my sister’s ‘model’ mannequin (albeit far from being even slightly qualified) for her newly set up blogshop (almost). It was something new, and fun ; felt almost like a small girl all over again, playing Dress Up. Thank you for 20% commission, sister! (hahahaha, I WISHED! )
(and i know you all must be thinking why there’s so much content in paranthesis / ( ) , which actually i dont know why too)
I believe a greeater week is ahead! The first week was awesome, the 2nd week’s gonna be even better!
ALL THE BEST TO THOSE COLLECTING YOUR O LEVEL RESULTS!
It’s 4am and I just spent 3.5 hours typing an overdued email, but at least now it’s done, and Ive got 2010 nicely thought out and penned down :)
It’s interesting, because 2 days ago was my first time ever in my life (on my own accord and out of my own interest), stepping into a bookstore to get a book. Now, dont let your jaws drop ; you know I’ve never once sat down during the holidays just to complete reading a book in the past 10 years , ever since the Enid Blyton/Secret Seven/Rohld Daul days passed(by the way im spelling his name, u can tell). not even the legendary Harry Potty series could keep me down. you know I’ve never been a bookworm - the probability of me eating up the pages, or drinking its ash+water concoction, is higher than me actually reading them. any free time means either catching up with friends, baking or shopping or.. FB-ing (added on activity since 2009)
So I think I will congratulate myself for finally making the first step into the lane, named – Knowledge, Growth and Wider Perspectives. Yay
This is a special book to me; Ive never felt so desperate in my heart , wanting to get – a book. Yes, it’s the least expected and I caught myself by surprise. Ive been wanting to get it since a month ago, (dont ask me how/why this book, because i dont know too) and it has been out of stock week after week after week, and when I finally decided to , at my inconvenience , find it in another bookstore, it came as one of the most quickly answered prayer- It came as a blessing. I thank you friend, for the vouchers on that very day, and it was so timely :)
God knows all things.
(haha! i love this photo. It’s soo apt, and smuggers know why!)
My oh my,
7 hours to my first lesson and Im on WordPress?!
May BGS still be Business, Government and Society, not Be Gone, Sleepers.
I must start this year right.
Please say it / suggest , only if you mean it.
HAPPY HAAPPYY HAAAPPYYY NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALLL…………!
To close the last chapter of an old book,
It was a very interesting 12 months- short summers coupled with long winter seasons.
2009 was my most fruitful and victorious year ; A year of fresh experiences, numerous phases, mountain highs and valley lows- as the ubiquitous phrase goes. By God’s grace I was able to serve Him in the CG once again, collected the very rewarding A level results, went through the arduous process of countless scholarship interviews and finally landed with 2, signed up at SOT just the day before it commenced (maybe that just set a record for the most last minute enrolment) and gritting my teeth through the crazy rollercoaster 4.5month period emerging the best acad student – something that Ive always dreamt of each time the thought of “if im ever going to SOT” came, because i didnt want it to be an ordinary journey( The whole entrance into SOT was totally unplanned and beyond my wildest imaginations), had a quick 24-hour rest after graduation and transited straight into a new phase of life-varsity. Everything raced past so quickly that it felt like the movies. Those kind where the main character is at a standstill while everything else around her is being fast forwarded X4; motion, people,seasons,buildings,….A sem passed with projects, tests, projects, and more projects, and soon came the exams, then the whole spate of events like PKP(ha.), Christmas and Thanksgiving chalet, which I am extremely thankful for, because Ive got the chance to learn to love, know and draw close to one of the bestest bunch of people that are now placed closest to my heart (really great blessings!)and
” 5……….
4……..
3…..
2…
1..”
Its 2010!
This year I believe, is gonna be spring
So Im gonna leave behind what belongs to 2009 – the past defeats and victories, and move on to higher levels , because 2010 is going to be a year of greater breakthroughs, visions, dreams, relationships, encircled around Love.
Yes,Love.
And so , is the title of the first chapter of Twenty Ten.
Many of us start each year with a burning passion and motivation to fulfill a long list of goals, myself included. Sometimes I get so ambitious that by the time a quarter of the year has passed, i’ve forgotten three quarters of what ive purposed to do. So Ill start with a change this year ; Ive Kept It Simple Stupid (KISS rule). All my sub-goals revolve around only one thing – Love, for God and for people.
And this is my greatest wish, greatest hope, greatest yearning,
for 2010.
Love,
Felicia
Hi friends,
how has the hols been for you?
Many things have been keeping me off this Almost dusty page. I’ve travelled truckloads (via public transport ), ate mountaineous piles, caught up with loved ones to sky high levels, and stayed home… pin-hole amounts. Caught up with my parents over a few dinners, part of which took us on a trial around Chinatown, and an introduction to one of my most favourite Fish Bee Hoon eating places at Bugis (which sadly turned out to be a disappointment because it is no longer as good).
It has just been so eventful, and I had several First Times again – first time supporting a friend at a Pageant , first time going for a Fish Spa (oh my, you MUST try it at least once!! it will tickle every ounce of lethargy out from your being), first time seeing JJ Lin – life!!, first time…. exercising *in a my-fats-know-how-long while ; non- exhaustive list. It has probably been one of the most fruitful holidays in terms of time spent catching up with my friends.
I must say that I will end this year with no regrets, because I know that I have tried my best , and am still trying my best, For One Reason. Yes, there were disappointments with many of the responses, but I believe that greater things have yet to come, and I sincerely pray with all my heart for the best outcome. It feels extremely rewarding because something has been sown in the eternal and the past 3 hours online was no different. Honestly, I was (and probably still is) afraid and hesitant, but I keep reminding myself that this IS the season to be the boldest! the faithful! (and faithFULL)! If not wait till when???
Time waits for no man, really.
And the time is NOW.
We’ve crossed our half-way mark, in Date, and in Numbers. If u caught that pun. 
It’s 17th December peeps, Time to SPRINT!
LOVE YOU ALL <333 !
XOXO
Good morning friends its 1.20am - my first post after concluding the exams, and you must be wondering how it feels ?
It feels,
like that.
YAY.
I pray that it will be a fruitful 1-month, yet (i hope) some time for solitude and an opportunity for soul-searching, and reviewing of 2009’s goals ; and 2010’s.
You should too!
